“Waste no more time arguing what a good man should be. Be one.” –Marcus Aurelius

I met the Shaktivator in Ubud Bali, which seems to be the Mecca for lost souls seeking spiritual guidance and radical change. I had been shown his website by one of my friends, and I instantly wanted to meet this complex creature.

Now, I like pretty much all shapes, sizes, colors, genders, niches, the weirder the better. But I have had very very bad experiences with men who follow similar mantras about how to procure pussy, so in my quest through Bali to identify what practices were bullshit and which were actually helpful to the development of your soul, I set out to meet him.

Often in life, we come to quick snap judgements, and I very wrongly walked into this interview thinking I was going to meet an entirely other person. Who I met, was Dennis AKA the Shaktivator. A man who has some very interesting ideas about how men can better connect to women and harness their own sexual energy for good. So, get ready, for the wisdom of the Shaktivator.

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“You’re always one decision away from a totally different life.”

I met Skylove Solei at a private sound healing that featured water beds with the instruments hooked up to giant bass speakers that were UNDER the water beds so the vibrations literally blew open your third eye and blasted you into outer space. Sound crazy? IT WAS. It was at the Pyramids of Chi in Bali, a sacred hippie dippie next level yoga compound where people of all walks of life (as long as they are wealthy) come to harness their root chakras. Sometimes, when I write words like this, I feel like I've been abducted by yoga aliens and they are in fact now typing for me.

He was all angles, all muscle, lean and mean and only dresses in the kind of fancy drapey white Tulumenti robes that is usually reserved for people who like to drink Kool Aid in group settings.

He seemed to glide about the room. I could never hear his footsteps. He had a heart wrenching singing voice, and could play literally every instrument I've every seen at once time. He was cool as a cucumber, and I wanted to know everything about him.

So I met him again, this time for a group sound healing where women were moaning so loudly I thought either I was going bananas or someone's pineal glad was located inside of there clitoris. Hard to know either way. So we sat, inside this pyramid, surrounded by candles and giant instruments and he showed me how to play them and how he had to come to cross my path in Bali.

I'll say this about Bali, no matter who you are, it's hard not to fall victim it's palpable spirituality, and eternal search of self....so much so that it's easy to become obsessed with a singular pursuit of a higher consciousness. I do not come from a world that believes in any of this, but I too, have drank the Kool Aid and I'm all about, this crystal bowl life now.

But I'll say this, there is so much love in this community, and in the pursuit of their highest self, I have found the people that I would have completely written off before as looney tunes, to welcome me with open arms, listen to my skepticism and offer me their life stories simply as a testament to what can happen when you stop believing that god is out to get you and only you, and start to believe that the collective consciousness is on your side.

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No beauty shines brighter than that of a good heart - Shanina Shaik


I met Amma, when I had gone to a Christian Faith Healers Baptizing ceremony in Bali at a place called the Blue Lagoon. Yes, I know, talk about a Jew outta water.

I had come there because I had befriended a man named Rasmus, a German Entheogen (hallucinogenic) expert, who had recently turned to Jesus and had found the ultimate transcendent experience in his words.

He invited me to a prayer circle, and of course, I hopped on the back of a Gojek (the Uber of Bali) and a man wearing 15 silver rings and a Van Halen t shirt sped me through the rice fields to a place so off the beaten track, I thought I had been tricked into a Taken situation, but I waded through the high grass, and found this little oasis where people from all over the world had come to talk about their devotion to Christ.

We will hear from more of these faith healers soon, but for now all you need to know is Rasmus decided I needed to be "healed" (I mean duh, what was your first clue) and people sat in a circle around me and put their warm soft hands all over my body, and asked Jesus to heal me with his love.

I was about as comfortable with this as Larry David would be. But during this movie like moment, there was a woman, who was radiating light and love in such a powerful way I only could really see her.

Her name was Amma, and she was wearing this beautifully confusing collection of fancy beige pieces of fabric that somehow came together as a dress. I asked her if she would talk to me, after my "healing," and we went to a corner of this bizarre room full of people swaying and chanting Jesus's name, and with a black cat on my lap (this was a magical cat, i almost took him back to the US with me) I sat and was completely absorbed by her.

We talked for over two hours, but a lot of it was too personal for me to share (I know, can you believe it!!) But here is, a much reduced version, of the moment I met a woman who would heal many broken parts of me. She even made childbirth sound cool!!! She's very magical.

She makes these beautiful sacred clothes so you can see the sort of goddess she radiates.

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For the first time, I felt like I met a spiritual healer and practicer that wasn't full of shit. I LOVED HER.

Ama, I wish you so much luck in your journey of love, I am so glad there are people like you on this planet.

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“You already know everything, all ayahuasca does is remind you, it makes you aware of the infinite you have already known.” ― Gerard Armond Powell

Acid, mushrooms, DMT, MDA, 5 MAO, Changa, Iboga, Ayahuasca all of these things can help people knock down the walls that our parents build around our consciousness from the moment we exit the womb. All of them, when used wisely, can lead to profound changes in how we perceive everything around us and can often help open our hearts and expand our thinking. HOWEVER, what kind of changes, have a lot to do with your intention, and if your intention is to get fucked and dance, (no judgement, did it for years) you'll miss most of the precious information that they can provide.

So, I wanted to share with you some perspectives on how you can use these tools more wisely, so you can not only have the best time ever, but can harness the true gifts they are here to provide.

So, our Journey with Ayahuasca continues. We'll meet a man I met when he sat down next to me at a dinner party in Bali. He had a super fucked, bandaged up hand, and had recently come back from an emergency trip to Singapore for surgery, after a scooter accident.

We bonded over our collective lack of scooter skills, and he made me laugh so much that I decided that there must be more hidden stories inside of him so I met him at a local vegetarian restaurant (duh) and amongst the many sounds of Bali, (enginee, horny monkeys and poorly timed roosters) we sat, and talked. What I didn't know, was that he was studying to be a Curandero.

He had just landed in Bali after a 3 year deep dive into the Amazon to learn about their plants and now even speaks the local languages (which is REALLY hard, I've tried to learn)!

So, off we go into his brain to find out more about what he has learned from the sacred vine, we talked about so so many more things, but for the sake of people's destroyed attention spans, I narrowed our focus to a mini education podcast on Ayahuasca.

Again, usually when you take plant medicine, you will be OK...eventually. I was told by my Iboga provider that I was going to get out of it what I needed, not what I wanted, which is think is about the best advice you can take going into these 4/5/6 dimensions.

Whatever you decide, set your intention, do your homework, and strap in baby cuz the ride is going to be better and worse than you could have ever imagined.

In addition to working with plant medicine, I personally have become obsessed with self improvement on every level, (I have great bones, but my foundation had some carniverous termites in it,) and am taking a giant looking glass to every aspect of my life that needed work. Trust me, THERE'S ALOT. Because of this, I am on the 5th day of a liver detox, and let me tell you, I am feeling super weird but really good. Turns out that most of us modern human are living with TONS of toxins inside of us, and resetting your gut micro biome seems to be the best way to get rid of the last residues of your toxic past. Message me if you have questions, this shit is life changing.

Wherever you are I wish you warmth, sunshine, and the power to be happy with what you have at this moment.

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“The scariest part of ayahuasca, the thing that scares us the most, is that we might see ourselves.” ― Gerard Armond Powell

So...plant medicine. It's something that I hold with utmost respect and complete reverence and it's something that's being exploited at a rate that makes my head spin.

I first encountered it when I was traveling throughout South America when I was 18 (in 2004!!) I was living in Tena, a small rainforest preserve in a tiny straw hut and our guide, named Gato, who had yellowish eyes and was a tree frog expert asked my friends if we wanted to participate in a religious ceremony. He mostly spoke a language called Quecha, and some Spanish, so the translation left a little to the imagination but two of my friends, knowing nothing, went and did it. When they came back, they told me about Ayahuasca, about drinking a mud like sludge that tasted like a mixture of rotten flesh and fermented manure, and the subsequent 24 hours filled my mind with total wonder and confusion.

My friend Ben, who was a light filled happy go lucky kid from Maine who always had a small guitar and a rainbow tacky sack and a smile, was never the same. He saw things, that literally rained on his entire souls parade.

For months we traveled together and he was a shell of himself. He never talked about it again...I didn't hear again about plant medicine for many many years, but it's been creeping up slowly in my community like a invasive vine. All of a sudden there's "shamans" in Bushwick giving " ceremonies in their backyards and I want to use whatever small platform I have to give people a real warning. THIS IS NOT A FUN EXPERIENCE. Plant medicine will change everything you think you know about yourself and your world. THIS IS NOT FOR EVERYONE.

They should be revered, respected and cherished. The knowledge they can bring is literally otherworldly. It is not for people who want to get high. I will be bringing you two stories. Each is beautiful, each is valid, each has a lot of information for people who are searching and looking to walk down a medicine path.

Buckle up kids, it's gonna get ugly.

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